February 19, 2009 - I'll Take Care of You

February 19, 2009

For the last several weeks this song has been my all time favorite. I am listening to it almost 3 times in a day. That is how am I engrossed with this Steven Curtis Chapman song. Today I feel so so and so down. I felt so bored with my life. I am thinking so deep of where I am going to. I cant find an answer. I am thinking towards where I am leading to - marriage, single blessedness or what? My career towards where MTC, work abroad, or another company again Where? Oh my God I really dont know!

I decided to take a walk at UP after my office work. As I am walking along I almost cry because I cant find an answer. I am thinking what is going on with me? Is this due to hormonal change because in the coming days I will be having my period? Is this a real feeling that I have to bear because I am getting more mature in life? I really dont know.

While walking and listening to my selection of songs on my phone, this song reminds me that someone will take care of me. At first I am asking myself who, is it my siblings .... ooppps not much they have their own problems to bear, is it my friends.... oppps wrong maybe a little, is it my officemates ..... oooppps not again, is it my bf ..... oooopppps not really a good guess. Then something pops out of my mind, a promise that I will never forsaken especially at the saddest times of my life. A commitment that He will take care of me and He will swept away all my worries and fears. Tears flowed from my eyes because it says that "I will say it once more" its a reminder for me. Once in my life I felt that I am alone. He proved that I am not. Several years back I was dumped He lift me up. He carries me. He takes care of me.

At the end of my walk I feel better. I got an assurance that someone will take care of me. Someone will carry me, someone will love me and that someone is JESUS!

I'll take care of you
Don't be sad, don't be blue
I'll never break your heart in two
I'll take care of you
I'll kiss your tears away
I'll end your lonely days
All that I'm really tryin' to say
Is I'll take care of you

I want you to know that I love you so
I'm proud to tell the world you're mine
I said it before, I'll say it once more
You'll be in my heart 'til the end of time

I'll take care of you
Don't be sad, don't be blue
Just count on me your whole life through
'Cause I'll take care of you

If you want to listen to this song please click this link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4rxUnahSnc

February 2, 2009 -- Pag Ako'y Matanda Na!

February 2, 2009 - Isang Pagbabalik Tanaw

Sa araw na ito, dalawang taon na ang nakakaraan naramdaman ko ang pinaka nakakalungkot na sandali sa buhay ko. Umalis si Mama, umalis sa buhay ko na alam ko na di na muling babalik. Nakakalungkot dahil ang bilis ng panahon dalawang taon na pala ang lumipas. Inisip ko ano ako nung mga araw na yon. Isang batang umiiyak dahil iniwan ng nanay, isang bata na nasa isang sulok nagdarasal na sana isa lang panaginip ang nangyari. Pero hindi pala isa pala itong katotohanan na dapat harapin. Sa ngayon masasabi ko na mas naging matapang na bata na ako. Di na basta basta umiiyak sa mga pagsubok. Mas nakikita na sa bawat hamon ng buhay may kapantay na ngiti na tagumpay.

Nung Sabado, dumalaw ako sa Anawim, sa mga di nakakaalam ang Anawim ay isang Tahanan para sa mga matatanda na iniwan ng pamilya at walang nag aaruga. Naantig ang puso ko sa mga nakita ko. Mga matatanda na ang edad nasa 60 pataas. May ngiti sa mga labi nila pero mararamdaman mo sa mga mata nila ang dalangin na sana pasyalan sila ng mga anak o pamilya nila na tunay na makakapagbigay ng pagmamahal at pag aaruga. Habang kausap ko si Bro Tim dahil sa isang mahalagang pakay di maaalis sa mata ko ang maluha dahil sa puso ko andun ang panghihinayang at mga katanungan. Bakit ang mga matatandang ito nasa ampunan gayong ang iba sa kanila ay may mga anak? Bakit ako wala ng magulang at di na muling mayayakap at maaalagaan? Pati ang kabarkada kong si Joyce di mapigilan ang maluha magkakahalong awa at panghihinayang at maaring takot rin na baka sa pagtanda namin ganito rin ang kapuntahan namin.

Sa ganitong sitwasyon lalo akong naiyak isang lola ang kumanta ng Moon River, favorite ng Papa ko yun. Palakpakan ang mga tao. Si Lola sa kabila ng katandaan marunong pa ring kumanta at magpasaya ng mga tao. Humanga ako! Sa isip ko may nagpa-alala na gano man sabigat ang mga problema parang isang kanta may umpisa at katapusan. Sa bawat kanta kasunod ang palakpak, palakpak ng kasiyahan.

Habang may munting programa ang mga nag sponsor ng araw na yun, niyaya ako ni Joyce na maglakad lakad. Ang presko ng paligid ang daming puno. Ang mga tirahan ng mga Lolo at Lola ay isang malaking kubo gawa sa pawid at kawayan. Kahanga hanga dahil presko sa paligid, may veranda ang bawat bahay. Sa di kalayuan may isang munting chapel kung saan maaaring magmadasal ang mga Lolo at Lola. Sa pinto ng bawat bahay may mga wheel chairs siguro para yun sa mga matatanda na di na kayang maglakad o maaari ring gamit for emergency cases.

Pagbalik namin nagpunta kami sa opisina upang ikunsulta ang aking pakay. Ang hirap sabihin pero habang kinukuwento ko ang sitwasyon nanginginig ang boses ko. Alinlangan ang puso ko pero paano. Ayokong dumating ang araw na huli na ang lahat. Panalangin ko sa aming pag alis na sana ay maging kaaya aya sa paningin ni Lord ang kung anuman ang kahihinatnat ng lakad ko na yon. Sa puso ko andun ang hangarin na sana sa mga susunod na araw makabalik ako run di para maawa sa mga Lolo at Lola kundi ang magbigay sa kanila ng saya sa pamamagitan ng kunting salu-salo at pagbibigay ng regalo.

Gusto ko ibahagi sa inyo ang ilan sa mga larawan na kinuha ko sa Anawim. Sa lahat ng magbabasa nito paki samahan ng dasal ang mga Lolo, Lola sa Anawim, pati na rin ang sarili nating mga magulang at matatandang kamag-anak gayundin ang ating mga sarili na sana sa pagtanda natin mayroon ding mag aalaga at kukupkop sa atin maging ito ay ating mga mahal sa buhay o isang organisasyong gaya ng Anawim.



Para sa Mama at Papa ko sana mas naipadama pa namin yung pagmamahal namin sa inyo. Mapalad kami dahil kayo naging mga magulang namin, walang kapantay ang pag aaruga at pagmamahal nyo sa amin. Mama and Papa we love you!

December 28, 2008 - Guess who is Santa?

Let me share with you this picture. To those who know me very well you might guess who is Santa in my christmas tree. :) but to those who are not just keep on guessing.



The purpose of this blog is to congratulate my Santa for being awarded as Employee of the Year. You deserve it Mr. Piggy Santa I know how you do your work deligently. God is so good. He keeps on pouring you with blessings. I am happy for you sweety!

For security purposes I refuse to put pictures related to the awarding but I posted some artworks created by Mr. Santa and his staff.

To Mr. Piggy Santa, I am so proud of you!

December 17, 2008 - UP Lantern Parade

Walking from UP Oblation to Palma Hall is one of my favorite soul searching moment. I enjoy seeing the greens at UP. I find space whenever the cold air touches my skin. Whew! Deep sigh.

This is the first time that I witness the annual Lantern Parade. Good thing I had my phone so I took some photos. Please visit http://www.friendster.com/photos/4808413/1/576370981 for the photos. When I am uploading the photos I felt that I have to make it a medium of the things that i want to let go including the people that annoys me.

Anyway I had fun because i was able to buy Bibingka! Next year I will be using a digital camera capturing this event.

Kerygma Conference 2008 - Powerful Healing Prayer!

This is a prayer taken from the materials of the Kerygma Conference 2008. A powerful healing prayer that touched my heart. Friends and colleagues grab this prayer and with faith lift up to God all your diseases. The Bible says in Luke 11:24 " Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will have received it, and it will be yours."

Healing Prayer

Heavenly Father, I thank you for loving me. I thank You for sending Your Son, Our Lord Jesus Christ to the world to save and set me free. I trust in Your power and grace that sustain and restore me.

Loving Father, touch me now with Your healing hands, for I believe that Your will for me to be well in mind, body, soul and spirit. Cove me with the most precious blood of Your Son, our Lord Jesus Christ, from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. Cast anything that should not be in me. Root our any unhealthy and abnormal cells. Open any blocked arteries or veins and rebuild and replenish any damaged areas. Remove all inflammation and cleanse any infection by the power of Jesus' precious blood. Let the fire of your healing love pass through my entire body to heal and make new any diseased areas so that my body will function the way You created it to function.

Touch also my mind and my emotion, even the deepest recesses of my heart. Saturate my entire being with Your presence, love, joy and peace and draw me ever closer to You every moment of my life.

And Father, fill me with Your Holy Spirit and empower me to do Your works so that my life will bring glory and honor to Your holy name.

I ask this in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen

Please visit http://kerygmaconference.com/

November 2, 2008 - Bonding Moments ( Food Trip -- Wow busog)

I thank God for a very wonderful, blessings filled, joyfull weekends.

I feel so blessed because for the last few weeks I got the opportunity to spend my
quality time with my friends, office mates, family and church mates. This is one of the
best gift that I ever received. Most expensive that any amount of money cant buy.


October 25 - 26, 2008 - College Best Friends and kids

My best friends Annie and Joyce finally visited the house together with their kids Aia and Niki. We had a quality time with the kids, playing, dancing, singing, story-telling and a lot more. Annie cooked her Chicken special menu and Joyce cooked her special Pancit.

It is so nice to have this kind of event once in a while. To get away with pressures of work and be with kids is like being a kid for some time. Never mind about the problems of life but instead act like a kid and being with kids is really a funny experience.

Seeing these kids playing, running and making "kulet" can really make your world rumble. Imagine Niki, Aia and Raven play at the same time. Whew! Plus as the oldies like us join them in playing.


October 31, 2008 - MTC Family Halloween / Birthday Party ( Ms.E and Rose )

This is a two in one celebration, halloween party and birthday celebration of yours truly and Ms E ( D' Tanders )

A mini party held at Ms. E's house with matching custome party. Thanks to Doc Oda for joining me to go around Glorietta and Greenbelt and were able to find a nice "horror mask" for us.

We had a long table filled with palatable and yummy delicacies. No one can forget the amazing and good tasting "Paella" courtesy of Ms. E's Mom. We also had "Hinilabos na Hipon and Pork Barbeque as our main menu. For our dessert we have chocolate fundue especially made by the singing doctor, Doc Oda, plus the Leche plan and cake made by Ms. E's daugther.

It was fun filled day! Bonding with officemates, singing out masterpieces, eating together, cracking jokes plus the few bottles.

November 1, 2008 - Day with Mama and Papa

All Saint's Day!

As a tradition, the family meet at the cemetery to spend the day with Mama and Papa. It was a bonding moment with my siblings, nieces and nephews. We gather around the tomb of my parents. Light a candle, offer a prayer and flowers.

We eat lunch together I requested my Ate to cook my old time favorite Chosuey while Kuya prepared his own specialty Pork BBQ. Wow busog! Merienda time we had Maja Blanca cooked by one of my Ate while I ordered Pizza. At home we had a good time, telling stories, giving updates and cracking jokes.

Opps I almost forgot!

November 2, 2008 - Kfam Lunch at Pizza Hut

After attending the Feast worshiping and serving God through prayers. The Kfam brothers and sisters gather around and enjoyed the Pizza galore sponsored by Bro Louis who is fresh from Guam. After that we had a habitual fellowship over a coffee at Megamall.


I am so thankful that for the last few weeks I had great time with family and friends. This is one of the best gift that I ever had for my 30th birthday.

Food eaten together with your love ones taste better!

Sana maulit ito malimit.

To God i bring back all the honor and thanksgiving.

October 23, 2008 - Me and my Birthday Cake

Me ---- celebrating my 30th birthday!

Tatlong dekada na po ng buhay na punong puno ng saya, luha, takot, tuwa, kapayapaan at pag-ibig!

Thank you Lord for 30 years of good health, strong faith, wisdom, and unconditional love. A true love that comes from YOU alone. Thank you Lord Jesus that inspite all the hardships and trials I am still here standing in front YOU, loving you with all my heart, giving to you my life and my soul. You are my God. I love you Lord.

Thank you Lord for my parents! You know how I am longing for their hugs and kisses but you never fail to let me feel their presence in through people, my friends, siblings, officemates and most of all my boyfriend. These people Lord never fail to remind me that I am strong, I am loved and I am important. Thank you Lord for them.

Thank you Lord for all the blessings! You are my provider! I have enough supply and I know blessings are on their way. I know Lord the long awaiting gift from you will come soon very very soon. With my joyful heart I am excited to unwrapped that gift Lord!

My Birthday Cake ---- surprised from LOVE! ( kakakilig daw ba?)

This birthday cake was a surprise present from my bf almost 4000+++ miles away from here. He celebrated my birthday with friends as if he is here celebrating it with me. It so nice to feel that he is showing his thoughtfulness, his care, his sweetness and his love.

Love, I am really touch with your gesture. I told you I will post it in my blogs. As of this time I am not so sure if I can post your picture. You know I am a secretive person when it comes to my love life. My only prayer to God is to bless us both with all of our desires. Let us keep on praying for that Love, God is good. He will give us only the best.

My boyfriend ---- the chef of my heart for almost 8 months and counting!

He told me one week ago that he plans to celebrate my birthday after his work. He told me that he will ask his baker to prepare a cake for me or maybe he will prepare it himself. As of this time that I am writing this blog I haven't asked him who did the cake. It is the thought that counts. I can't imagine him celebrating my day knowing that he is so so far away from me. Thanks to the technology!

I even got mad when he is not yet online on our usual talk time early in the morning of Thursday! He said sorry for being late because he spent a time with his friends.

Finally, I decide to put his picture here. I am hoping walang manunukso lalo na sa office special mention si Archie at Sir Ryan, mga alaskador yan eh! Picture lang nya muna, other details to be revealed gradually as I am unwrapping the gift!

Last few words.... I am happy now!

This weekend my college friends Annie and Joyce will be sleeping over at my house with their lovely and cutie cute daugther Aia and Niki. Annie will cook her Special Chicken Menu daw... hehehe goodluck. I don't know with Joyce kung ano naman ang drama nya. Lily my twin sister will join us also because we will be watching some wedding CD's. I am excited for this event.

Month end, we will have a gathering also at Ms. E's house to celebrate din our birthdays. Ms E's birthday is October 27 tama ba? Most likely Archie will prepare my request, salsa and nachos.

November 1, this is my day with my siblings! We will spend the day together as we visit Mama and Papa. Most likely kainan ulit ito. I requested for Chopsuey courtesy of Ate Mary Rose kasi wala namang ibang magluluto kundi sya.

Teka yung last few words ko naging paragraph na...

Thank you! Thank you Lord!